Sunday Morning, Sun Is Shining

Change.
it's the constant thing that never changes.
how contradicting.
Sometimes, it's so much better that nothing changes.
Yet, change can be beneficial to others.
Change comes along with time.
How i Hate Changes and How i Hate Time.
how i hate it when they come hand in hand.
If there was no time, would there have been changes?
or would it be that BECAUSE there was no time
that no one really notices it.
why is there a NEED for changes?
for us to grow?
for us to learn?
for us to improve?
what if change breaks somebody?
shatters them into pieces?
pulls them apart?
yet, despite the negative points, it is never ending.
The question is, WHY?
No.
"Why" can't do anything much.
The Question is, WHICH is better.
Without time or without change?
But what's the point?
Even if you know the reasons,
even if you know the choices,
there is NO WAY of changing changes.
Yet it feels so hard to accept this!
There's so many "what if"s that's yet to be found.
What's the point anyway?
There is no escape!
Just accept it and learn to embrace it.
Maybe that's what "change" wants to teach us in life.
To learn how to accept.

CHANGES

been looking at past pics.
unglam shots.
lovely memorable shots.
fugly shots.
YES!
we've all changed
in many ways and wonders.
we look much better as we grow.
we behave much better (okay.. the exceptions are many)
our relationships with one another changes over time.
some becomes colder.
some becomes stronger.
some just remains the same.

yet, HOW MUCH I HATE CHANGES.
maybe it IS the greatest fear because you cant anticipate for it to come.
it's everyday.
there is NO escape!
You can't "prepare" for tomorrow.
you have to wait for "tomorrow" to come.
you'll have to wait for the day to past before you know waht's "gonna" happen on that particular day.

sometimes, i wish that change never existed.
i wonder how life would be...
would it be boring?
or better?
good?
or bad?
heart-warming?
or heart-shattering?

truly, time comes hand in hand with change.
over time, be it a short or long period, drastic changes occur.
people around you change.
sometimes, it catches you by surprise.
sometimes, it's so gradual that you never realise anything, until you get a quick "preview" of the past (via pics)

sometimes, you really embrace it with all your might.
but most of the time, you just wanna throw it away.

is this what i'm feeling and thinking?
me, and my own feelings and thoughts?
or does anyone feel/think the same?

oh wells.. why not just take it as it goes, adapt to it.
love it.
appreciate it.

class photo taking.
i don't want to have a LAST class photo taking.
i want it to be everlasting.
EVER.LASTING

"Does it bother you?
'cause i bothers me!
so much that i don't want to ever remember"